Assorted Thoughts with a Heavy Heart and a Light Spirit : Loving Jacqui

Assorted Thoughts with a Heavy Heart and a Light Spirit

Sometimes long distance relationships are tough, particularly when you have an unrelated personal problem to overcome. Sometimes you wonder if you are being fair to the other person even while you find yourself doing/ thinking/ feeling things for them you’ve never thought of for another person.

And who understands what the answer is?

Sometimes, you just put your faith in God and in life that the right things will happen and if not, you’ll handle it.

Realizing that the best moments you’ve ever experienced with another person are here and now – which is the only time to really live.

I don’t love Bear because of the future and what may come… I love her because of the present and who she is/ I am/ we are now.

It’s an intriguing twin paradox that at one time my definition of ultimate hell, which I confirmed to myself in my thoughts and feelings last night, would be never to meet her in person, which I am determined to if she wills it too… and on the other, that even if that were to happen I wouldn’t trade a single second of it or make a different decision regarding her (though yes I would have worked sooner and more seriously) because of the Heaven she brought me and chose to share with me.

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I LOVE YOU with all my heart and correction…. you are my heaven and am so blessed to have you as part of my life.

YES its hard at times only for the fact that I cant have you as part of my life like all the other “normal” couples, but so far, I wouldnt trade a single second of it, bad or good!

Lets just get all the awesome people who read this blog to give me money for the “Send Chris to Australia” fund. KIDDING! x x x

Comment by bear
6:08 AM Vancouver, Canada time on Sat. Mar 18th, ’06
Why kidding?

In addition to my own work (for example, finding some!) and yours I’ll add a PayPal “Donate” button.

It may only raise $8, if that, but since I remember once living on the Vancouver streets years back, sitting on Hastings (really) contemplating how I had two new jobs, but no home… I remember a decent well-dressed man putting a toonie (2-dollar coin) in my hand hand and I was shocked.

Grateful for the thought, but I gave it back. He was surprised, but took it kindly.

So why not… maybe I will bend a little, turn over a new leaf, and ask for help if that’s what it takes.

$8 could come in handy when it comes to meeting you.

Comment by Chris Dollis
6:14 AM Vancouver, Canada time on Sat. Mar 18th, ’06